Monday, June 11, 2012

Lucky in love, unlucky in fertility

Flo is a fickle bitch. I started spotting last night and woke up to NOTHING this morning! I've been spotting on and off throughout the day today. What the?! Flo, if you're really coming I demand that you show your face NOW! If you don't, I think I may go mad.

Let me just reiterate how much I love J. Yesterday I told him that my second pregnancy test was negative. We then both simultaneously grabbed our respective tablets and started furiously searching the internet for any explanations. It was a really nice feeling to know that I had a partner in googling crime. Up until then I thought that I was the only psycho in the house who frantically took to the internet whenever infertility disaster arose. Later that night when I told him that I had started spotting his response was, "Yeah, I read that it can happen." Awww, my J was reading up on early pregnancy symptoms. What a guy!

But by then my mind had already decided that all hope was lost and J's only option was to hold me while I sobbed. Not only is he an excellent internet junkie, he also gives wonderful hugs. So, even though I do not feel lucky in the fertility realm I realize that I am very lucky in other aspects of my life.

5 comments:

  1. How frustrating! Come on flo...SHOW! Glad your hubs provided just what you needed! XO

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  2. AF came for me today and at least I can allow myself to feel better. Oh the pain. But I can move on! Fingers crossed that you get some answers soon!

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  3. Hang tough! Your optimism is inspiring!

    http://theconceptionchronicles.blogspot.com/

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  4. Lucky in love indeed. How sweet that he's there for you with exactly what's needed, whether that's a whole lot of internet research or a big comforting hug.

    Here's hoping CD1 arrives and puts your mind to rest ... so frustrating.

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  5. It is so nice to have a partner like that. Warms my heart. I'm glad you have him, you know for real hugs and stuff. Is flo treating you any differently today?

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