Monday, June 11, 2012

Lucky in love, unlucky in fertility

Flo is a fickle bitch. I started spotting last night and woke up to NOTHING this morning! I've been spotting on and off throughout the day today. What the?! Flo, if you're really coming I demand that you show your face NOW! If you don't, I think I may go mad.

Let me just reiterate how much I love J. Yesterday I told him that my second pregnancy test was negative. We then both simultaneously grabbed our respective tablets and started furiously searching the internet for any explanations. It was a really nice feeling to know that I had a partner in googling crime. Up until then I thought that I was the only psycho in the house who frantically took to the internet whenever infertility disaster arose. Later that night when I told him that I had started spotting his response was, "Yeah, I read that it can happen." Awww, my J was reading up on early pregnancy symptoms. What a guy!

But by then my mind had already decided that all hope was lost and J's only option was to hold me while I sobbed. Not only is he an excellent internet junkie, he also gives wonderful hugs. So, even though I do not feel lucky in the fertility realm I realize that I am very lucky in other aspects of my life.


  1. How frustrating! Come on flo...SHOW! Glad your hubs provided just what you needed! XO

  2. AF came for me today and at least I can allow myself to feel better. Oh the pain. But I can move on! Fingers crossed that you get some answers soon!

  3. Hang tough! Your optimism is inspiring!

  4. Lucky in love indeed. How sweet that he's there for you with exactly what's needed, whether that's a whole lot of internet research or a big comforting hug.

    Here's hoping CD1 arrives and puts your mind to rest ... so frustrating.

  5. It is so nice to have a partner like that. Warms my heart. I'm glad you have him, you know for real hugs and stuff. Is flo treating you any differently today?