I've always known that I wanted to be a mother but I didn't feel the need to be a young mother. My husband and I started dating in college and married in 2005. We decided to enjoy a few years to ourselves before adding to our family. My mom died very suddenly in 2008 and as I grieved for her I realized that my own maternal instincts were beginning to emerge. I went off the pill in 2009 and we've been trying ever since. In 2011 I was diagnosed with stage four endometriosis. Now that we know the culprit we are committed to treating it and (hopefully) creating our biological family.
On any given day I spend more time than I would like to admit thinking about infertility and my mom. I feel that both experiences have really shaped who I am today. However, I do have other, happier interests that also keep me occupied - reading, traveling, hiking, baking, joking around with my husband, spending time with friends and family, my amazing nieces and nephews, my furry babies (one dachshund and one cat), spending time at my dad's lake home, musical theater and the occasional beer tasting.
I'm very thankful to have an amazing husband, wonderful family members, supportive in-laws, an eclectic set of interests to keep me entertained and a supportive online infertility network. Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts! I appreciate having this venue to express myself.