But not today! My friend uttered those dreaded words and I immediately felt happy for her. I know she knows exactly how I feel about everything and that makes it easier to hear about her triumph. I have a couple friends who are infertile and I've always secretly been afraid of how I'd feel if/when they ever found a way to escape our predicament. I thought I would feel jealous (per usual) and perhaps feel even more bitter because they won and I didn't. I'm so pleased that I'm able to feel the exact opposite for my friend. I was so happy that I left our lunch date practically floating. Maybe it's because she has given me a wonderful gift....hope! If she can do it then so can I (at least I really, really, really want to believe that's true).
Perhaps I'll cry about it later, but for now I am savoring this intense feeling of hope.